My favorite quote (or reminder as I like to think of them)...

“Our deepest fear is not that we are inadequate. Our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure. It is our light, not our darkness that most frightens us. We ask ourselves, Who am I to be brilliant, gorgeous, talented, fabulous? Actually, who are you not to be? You are a child of God. Your playing small does not serve the world. There is nothing enlightened about shrinking so that other people won't feel insecure around you. We are all meant to shine, as children do. We were born to make manifest the glory of God that is within us. It's not just in some of us; it's in everyone. And as we let our own light shine, we unconsciously give other people permission to do the same.” (Marianne Williamson - A Return to Love)

Monday, April 12, 2010

Things I Miss

"Too much of a good thing can be wonderful." ~ Mae West

I'm not a very materialistic person. I love trinkets and treasures and I love my house to be beautiful (whether by something the children in my life have made me, an antique I have stumbled upon, or the latest beautiful thing from Pottery Barn matters not to me). I love jewelry, but I also love making jewelry. I own every possible thing you can put in a kitchen, but that actually embarrasses me a little -- although, much like fishing, woodwork, scrap booking, and hunting, a girl MUST have her tools! I love purses and bags but only "allow" myself one per season and only if last year's is "out". I've never owned the latest electronic gadget (nor do I care to) but I do love our new TV (and yes, I know flat screens aren't considered "new" anymore...).

But I do miss some very funny "things" about not working (besides the obvious). I miss how my large, hot, yummy tea feels in my hand when I'm driving to work. I miss being the first one in the office and listening to the quiet hum of nothing around me while I brew the first of 26 pots of coffee that everyone will make and drink that day. I miss how that first cup of coffee, out of that first pot, tastes while I walk back to my desk to pour over the emails that have come in from the night before. I miss quietly reading and responding to them all before the hustle and bustle begins. I feel like I can be such a good listener when I pay attention to them at this time. I miss how the phone doesn't ring for that first hour or so that I am at work. Oh wait, I don't miss the phone not ringing -- I have that now! :o)

I know I'm an early riser (it's the Baker in me, I'm sure) so it was never a big deal for me to go to work early and be the first one in. In fact, when I was at the log home company, I actually used to be a little disappointed when someone on my staff came in before me. Now, I was proud of them for knowing that was what was needed to get their job done well that day, but it made me miss the quiet of the day. It actually started the day a little abruptly for me as that usually meant that someone was going to demand my attention before I was ready to give it.

I'm at my most creative when I am driving to work in the morning. Mostly 'cuz I hate driving more than just about my mind wanders and creates. I keep a notepad and pen(s) at my very instant disposal so that I am able to recall this or that at a more appropriate time. I miss that as well -- yes, even the driving.

It's funny what you miss when it's (things are) gone. I think I will drink my water out of my office "tippy cup" (as I call it since I'm such a klutz!) today. And for sure I will have my diet soda precisely at 10:00 am. It would help if the phone could ring about 79 times today and if I could get like 123 emails, that would be good too. :o) Hmmm....maybe I don't miss EVERYTHING!!

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