My Journey Not to Settle...anymore!: Valuable Commodity

My favorite quote (or reminder as I like to think of them)...

“Our deepest fear is not that we are inadequate. Our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure. It is our light, not our darkness that most frightens us. We ask ourselves, Who am I to be brilliant, gorgeous, talented, fabulous? Actually, who are you not to be? You are a child of God. Your playing small does not serve the world. There is nothing enlightened about shrinking so that other people won't feel insecure around you. We are all meant to shine, as children do. We were born to make manifest the glory of God that is within us. It's not just in some of us; it's in everyone. And as we let our own light shine, we unconsciously give other people permission to do the same.” (Marianne Williamson - A Return to Love)

Wednesday, October 20, 2010

Valuable Commodity

"A man who dares to waste one hour of his life has not discovered the value of life." ~ Charles Darwin

It seems that I've kinda lost something in the last few months...something that is more precious to me than anything else at all. Time. It seems to be moving faster than I can even comprehend these days. Again, for me, there is nothing more important than time, so I'm finding myself out of balance. Now, don't get me wrong, I am starting to get my groove on at work so there is a routine starting to develop, but I am still having a hard time adjusting.

For instance, we didn't go apple picking this year. I have gone apple picking every year that I can remember for more than 20 years. But not this year. Insert sad face here. There is just something so wonderful about noticing what God did a simple tree and how much joy it can bring to me, our family, other families.

I clean the bathrooms in between stuff now. I dust while doing other things. I vacuum floors on different days (or my husband does it). Weird and yet, not wrong. Just noticing how I'm/we're squeezing stuff in lately to maximize time. This kind of "time crunch" stuff doesn't seem to bother me so much.

However, not having time for spending with people I love is getting on my nerves...rather it's getting on my heart. We haven't played with my sister and brother in law in months! We still haven't been down to see our friend Keith and Randy's new condo. Yoga hasn't started back up. I don't even know whose turn it is to host our next Luv Fest w/ my girlfriends and husbands.

I miss the time I used to have for luvin'. I miss the time I used to have for self-luvin' too -- like keeping up my blog. So I'm just working through the frustration of all of that right now.

And I'm remembering to be grateful. I'm grateful for the opportunity, strength, wisdom and knowledge to run my own business. I'm grateful that I married the world's most perfect husband and am grateful for all he does to help me keep up with my chores and errands and stuff to fix, clean, do, make, go to, get, etc. I'm grateful for all my friends and family who have bent their schedules around mine to spend time with me. And I'm grateful that I know that this too shall pass....just like time.